Grateful Exhaustion

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This summer, I'm working as a camp counselor at a Catholic summer camp. It's an incredibly intense job, both physically and emotionally. I love it, but it is definitely exhausting.


One thing I've noticed is that whenever someone asks me how I'm doing, I've started to reply with something along the lines of, "Oh, I'm surviving."

While maybe there isn't something inherently wrong about this response, I stopped to think about what I was actually saying. Is what I'm saying true? Am I just surviving? Am I just floating about the surface of life and doing the bare minimum to survive? Or am I living the life I am meant to live in that particular moment?

How can we learn to live fully and do God's will? For one, we can make a conscious choice to do all for God. As I pick up kids' candy wrappers I can do it for the glory of God. As I run halfway across camp to get a water bottle for a kid who has forgotten their water bottle five times, I can offer it up. When I am exhausted and feel I cannot go on, I can thank God for the exhaustion I feel. I am lucky to feel exhausted! It means I was given the ability to work hard for God.

My goal is not to simply survive in this life. My goal is to live presently, love completely, and do what I was created to do.










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